Cathartic isn't it Craig....... a weight lifted - a dark secret you hope doesn't get out because it will have repercussions. "It must only be me".
34 years of AA..... best thing in my life wasn't to stop drinking. It was to be HONEST. Make amends to those you've hurt. Forget it and look forward to what you can do about "it". My amends is to try to lift up - to reach down and lend a hand just like so many people did in my life. Sometimes we just have to be honest and know we're not always going to 100% successful. It's a percentage game - reach out to enough people - a percentage will be rewarding..... some won't get it.... some you'll be honest about and acknowledge you knew they were a waste of time when you started.... You did what you should and that's all you can ever do. THEY WIN if you let it beat you down. YOU WIN when you pick up a tool and do something with it and make the dream move forward.
XOXO to all
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