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Originally Posted by Che70velle
Well this stinks. I just got on from a week long 5500+ mile road trip with the family to Yellowstone, Grand Canyon, etc. and I didn’t expect to find this. It ain’t over til it’s over buddy. Embrace every moment in your today with everything you have. Make sure to say what needs to be said. Leave with no regrets. You have nothing to be ashamed of in my book Greg. You’ve fought this crap like your the second monkey trying to get on the ark, and it’s starting to rain. I applaud your dignity and your desire to help folks here, even now. I was out in your neck of the woods last week, and I will forever regret not taking the time to locate you and shake your hand. My prayers are still with you, as you know.
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Thanks Scott.... It’s okay - glad you didn’t go out of your way — that’s family time and should be respected as such. Hope it was a good trip for all.
All along this “journey” — I’ve made decisions based on what “I” wanted the outcome to be — knowing that my decisions may be the wrong ones medically - but the right ones for ME. I never was going to do chemo and radiation — and certainly not after having my cells examined by Foundation One which said NO known chemo was a match for what I had.
QUALITY of life should be the focus - not length of it. If I was to live 3 more years - but be spending that time in a chemo room — and the hospital - and taking all manor of pills for the ills that come with that way of treatment — I say NO THANK YOU. I’ll take the time I have — do that as clear and unobstructed as I can - and run with it. That was my choice all along - still is.
Now — I’m positive - 100% — that the treatment of THC/CBD got me to this point. I’d argue to the death with anyone that thinks otherwise. I know how I’ve felt - I know what I did. Now — that’s where I would say that I possibly made choices that were for me vs length of life. I should have stayed dosing THC with the CBD the ENTIRE TIME since day one. However.... I didn’t want the associated “high” that came with it — and so I choose to do more CBD and very little THC.... I know it’s the THC that fights the cancer — but hoped that the CBD would at least hold it off and stretch out some time - while giving me the quality of life I desired. As I sit here now - I would not have changed the choices I’ve made.
I’ve said from day one — I’ve lived one hell of a great life. Would I like to continue that forever? Sure. We all would. But I have no regrets and feel that I’ve actually probably lived about two lifetimes. It’s only when discussing with buddies on the “text train” and I reminisce about life’s adventures — that I shake my head and think — this whole thing must sound “made up” because it’s so incredulous! Since my early teens - it was WOT - one adventure after another - and only seems to have accelerated in the last 30 years.
Life is a weird game — ups and downs - wins and losses... but when I stop and assess what’s the biggest thing in life for me — it always comes back to the people. The people I’ve met - the people that have been able to do things with - the people that have reached down and pulled me up - the people I’ve pushed up from the bottom.... in the end - that’s the only thing I’ll miss.